I am not a fan of auditions. Then again, who is? Eventually you get used to them (as with anything you repeatedly do), but they are always stressful in some way or another. Just think about it. You’ve got about a total of 5 minutes or less to impress a panel of judges. Maybe one or two scenes to shine. GO! Show us what you got. Showcase your talent. Leave everything on the table. I want to puke just thinking about it. Sometimes I wish the judges would say, “let’s take a chance with this guy. Maybe he was nervous.” However, that’s the name of the game. Whether I’m nervous or not, I chose something where auditions play a pivotal role in my future. Theater. Movies. Commercials. Comedy. You need to audition. They are cattle calls (endless lines of people waiting around moaning and mooing like cattle). There are so many factors that can impact the judge’s decision. Have they seen you before? Are you wearing appropriate attire? Did you follow the rules of whatever art you are auditioning for?
For me, improv is the art. So the basic rules are establishing a relationship and making sure to ‘yes and’ (don’t deny the other person). For example, if your partner walks out and says “man I love this house”, don’t reply with “what are you talking about, we are on a raft!” Auditioning for improv can be a glorious Rocky-like, gold medal winning, cross the finish line triumph or it can be a body melting nuclear explosion. My last audition was a nuclear blast equivalent to the end of The Crazies. I know because I could see it exploding right in front of me while I was on the stage. I felt it as it was happening. It was no one’s fault. No one but my own. The weak one’s will blame others. In this case, I rambled and it didn’t make much sense. It didn’t help move the scene forward and it sure as hell didn’t explain why we were where we were. I also didn’t bring my personality out. I didn’t leave it all out there so to say.
So in essence. I failed. Do I give up? No. Should I continue? Yes. Why? Because I know I am better than that. I know that I’ve been trained by some of the most gifted improvisers and actors in Chicago. I also know that I have the support of my family and friends. I’ve never been a person who quits. “Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up.” That quote, from Batman Begins, is one of the most influential quotes to me. It helps to signify the importance of failure. We have to fail so that we can succeed. While I may have bombed the last audition I did, it’s not going to be the last time I audition. I lived and I learned. If you’re reading this and you’ve ever given up on something because it didn’t go your way. Try again. Look back at what went wrong and correct it. The only thing you can look forward to is your next opportunity. I look forward to my next audition. I can’t change the past. I am disappointed, but I am motivated.